London, 7:30am. I am sitting at my desk watching the day come to life..it's getting lighter and lighter outside and I am aware of the time ticking and my to do list not growing any shorter..but I got my thoughts..I will think them whether I write them or not but it will all be a lot clearer if I write them down..
I feel like I have grown up a lot in the last two years..I have a job I enjoy and appreciate, I bought a flat with my boyfriend, I am thinking of the future..
The circumstances have changed, in both good and bad ways.. I realise that life may not turn out exactly as we had planned it.. maybe I was a bit shocked that we can't always just drive things where we would like to..the best lesson I have learned is not to blame anyone for it..instead it's a lot easier to accept the reality and try to adapt your dreams so that they fit within that reality..
The years go by.. someone has told me that you will always think back to times in the past and wish you were reliving them so it's important to remember to enjoy those times and appreciate the present instead of always living for the what ifs...planning the next stage..waiting for something to happen..
At the same time dreaming is a right..and for me having a dream, having a vision of where I want to be for some reason makes me happier..so a bit of dreaming works for me..and recently I 've been dreaming of things..and it gives me a perspective..it reminds me not to worry about little daily things..
For a while I had forgotten to dream..maybe I wasn't sure how to..but it feels so much better that I feel positive again and that I am thinking of the future in a good way again, that I have something to say again ..
