Soulla in 2009..
The last year has not been the easiest. Nothing especially bad has happened to me for which I thank God! But I think I might have had to grow up and look at things from a more mature perspective.
Leaving the student behind..
I think that since I left university I have been behaving as a big kid! Living as a student who has just left university but is still not a proper adult. I confess that six year later other than in relation to my job I do not have many responsibilities. I and my friends have mostly avoided those..
Real Life?
But this year things were different. The credit crunch caught up with us..not that it had any economic implications for me or even anyone I know but it made us reconsider things. Stop taking things for granted. I find myself and generally people of my generation very much protected from "bad things". Unlike many of our parents we have never wanted for anything. Someone always had our backs. And suddenly, we had to stop in our tracks and think, understand even that not everything is up for grabs. Sometimes you actually had to fight to get things which for so many years you believed you were entitled to..
Entitlement?
And London is definitely a place where people think they are entitled to things. I work hard or I am smart and educated and therefore I am entitled to a good job, good money. I am a nice person and therefore I am entitled to a happy, good life..Is that right though? In the big scheme of things why are you entitled to a good job, good money? Because your parents could afford your education? Because your parents cared to educate you, had the time to look after you and make you into a nice person? In any event are you 100% sure you really are a nice person?
Maybe we are not entitled to as much as we think are and therefore, in my head I have understood how grateful I should be that I actually do have a good job, I have found the man I love (and oh my god he loves me back), my family and friends are all happy and mostly healthy..I know now that I am happy even if sometimes I actually forget I am..
Soulla in 2010..
I have found that pulling the carpet under my feet has made me understand how much I liked standing on that carpet and therefore whatever the case may be I really think that 2010 will definitely be a good year. A year for me to enjoy all the difficult realisations I had to make in 2009!
Καλή χρονιά!!
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